bad again

I'm sleeping too much and somehow not enough at the same time The shower's my enemy, I've been avoiding the front lines, yeah I justify self-medicating by saying it's just this time But one turned to two, and then three, now I see that they're warning signs Slowly slipping, start to spiral Caught myself in self-denial Guess I can't keep lying to my brain It's getting bad again (fuck) I know myself and, no, I can't pretend It's getting bad again I'm watching my life from the passenger side of the train-wreck Someone cut the brakes, but I don't even brace for the impact, yeah I've been hit too many times to count Wasting my energy, emptied my bank account All for the sake of trying to change something that won't go away Slowly sleeping, start to spiral Caught myself in self-denial Guess I can't keep lying to my brain It's getting bad again (fuck) I hate this feeling, God, how I wish it would end I know myself and, no, I can't pretend It's not too much for like giving up on this (like giving up) It's getting bad (Oh, it's getting bad again) Hold my breath, I'm going under Try to fight this, I don't wanna Feel like sinking any longer It's getting bad (it's getting bad again) Hold my breath, I'm going under Try to fight this, I don't wanna Feel like sinking any longer It's getting bad again I know myself and, no, I can't pretend I hate this feeling, God, how I wish it would end I know myself and, no, I can't pretend It's getting bad again