Close My Eyes

'Cause every time I close my eyes I can't find a reason why I live this life, pray I die Try to do it right this time, face my pride But in the end I'm crying, I don't know why 'Cause every time I'm falling for the victim of another night, pressed I'm crawling for a system where it's never right Keep me from the thoughts of digging deeper, I know I'm not a believer But playing games with the reaper betting on my life 'Cause every time I close my eyes I can't find a reason why I live this life, pray I die I try to do it right this ti-, face my pride But in the end I'm crying, I don't know why 'Cause every time I close my eyes I can't find a reason why I live this life, pray I die I try to do it right this-, face my pride But in the end I'm crying, I don't know why I'm lost in a fog now, got nowhere to go 'Cause I don't know what I've lost now I see there's a sign The lights are closing on me With the weight of a fine line, yeah I'm feelin' chills up to my spine, yeah I hesitate just to buy time 'Cause I know you cannot relate back to my life And I don't believe that I can find the way I'm broken pieces, try to fight today These thought of me are lighting up my brain I don't think I can really find another way out, yeah I'm filled with doubt I'm so strung out, just kill me now Am I dead now? 'Cause every time I fuck up, I'm lost Life at what cost, can't find a reason to press on I'm done, what I've become? I'm about to break, I'm trying to find Where I belong, can't take much more Where am I now? So far from home I've been living everyday on a repeat Got pain in my eyes when you see me Feels like happiness took a back seat Red carpet stained with my blood on the TV Miss the days when I wasn't trying to be The next big thing, living so freely Now it's gone and I'm stuck all alone In this plastic hell 'Cause every time I close my eyes (close my eyes) I can't find a reason why I live this life (live this life), pray I die I try to do it right this (right this) ti-, face my pride But in the end I'm crying, I don't know why (but in the end I'm crying, I don't know why) Close my eyes (close my eyes) I can't find a reason why I live this life (live this life), pray I die I try to do it right this (right this) ti-, face my pride But in the end I'm crying, I don't know why (but in the end I'm crying, I don't know why)