I'm trying

It's been a week and I can't tell you a thing I did I can't sleep, all my friends they're worried again It's a cycle I won't outgrow I'm the punchline of some sick joke I can't bring myself to leave home But I'm terrified to be alone I say that I'm fine but it feels like I'm dying Why do the words in my head get so violent? Half of the time I'm just barely surviving But I'm trying, I'm trying No surprise that I'm not one for resolutions Even in the best times, I'm too scared to smell the roses It's a cycle I won't outgrow I'm the punchline of some sick joke I can't bring myself to leave home But I'm terrified to be alone I say that I'm fine but it feels like I'm dying Why do the words in my head get so violent? Half of the time I'm just barely surviving But I'm trying, I'm trying Tryna be everything to everybody I feel so much that I almost feel nothing Half of the time I'm just barely surviving But I'm trying, I'm trying I'm trying, I'm trying Yeah, I'm trying, I'm trying, oh Yeah I'm trying, I'm trying I'm trying, (I'm trying) I'm trying Yeah I'm trying I'm trying