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I stare at my phone at people being funny I stare out the window It looks like it's sunny But I'm stuck inside and I can't escape from the thoughts in my head Or silence the voices that make me wish I was dead And all that I feel is that we're not getting better That it's all just pretend and it just doesn't matter That our love isn't real and I just wanna hide From this life that we live that we're stuck can't decide And I don't know what else I can do And I don't know what else you can say To take this pain away To make me wanna stay And I keep telling myself it's ok you can leave But I lie to myself just enough to believe That this life is worth living but I know that's not true And If I want to keep going I have to leave you And I know I'm too dark and too nihilistic And I don't want to be just another statistic But we're not getting better and we're not doing well And the truth of the matter is that our life is hell And I don't know what else I can do And I don't know what else you can say To take this pain away To make me wanna stay And I know that there's beauty in everyday But I still have my doubts so I'm walking away And I really don't know if this will be a mistake But I've made up my mind so It's a risk I will take And I don't know what else I can do And I don't know what else you can say To take this pain away To make me wanna stay Please take this pain away Please take this pain away Please take this pain away Please take this pain away