Hard 2 Love

I'm hard to love Hard to love cause I was easy to leave, leave, leave I'm hard to love cause I was easy to leave, leave, leave I've been broken, battered and bruised Just scattered to the wind Thrown out, left for dead Never told it was the end Cursed and cussed out And taken for granted Given everything I have Just to be left empty handed Deceived and lied to And led astray while I was led on As if I was a game to play Some say that every person is a lesson to learn So I'm wise beyond my years And I'm tired of getting burned So please don't ask me to take care of your heart The only thing I've been taught is how to tear one apart And no, I don't trust you, I don't trust me I've let everything I love rip a hole in me So there's really nothing left but this empty shell And if you try to love me, just know I'ma put you through hell I'm not well when it comes to this love, you'll see I'll always have a plan B for when you decide to leave I'm hard to love cause I was easy to leave No matter what I did, nobody ever really loved me Now I'm jaded and filled with regret The only thing I know for sure is that I'm hard to forget I'm hard to love, but baby I'll be easy to leave No matter what I do, you ain't bout to stay with me This is the path that I was given, the cards I was dealt And all I really learned is how to love myself There's a thin line between love and affection Caring and obsession, believe me, I'm not the best at not stressin It's always something weighing on me, and my soul is gone I'm lucky that I still bleed, I'm all in or all out It's black or it's white, it is what it is I ain't gon' put up a fight, balance or something I ain't never gon' find, I guess it's just a byproduct of an ailing mind Give it time and I promise you'll get tired of me Everybody does, baby, it's just my reality, I'm damaged And the hurting goes deep, it seems that my demons Are the only company I can keep, I find peace in the chaos And solace in the dark, I don't need a hand to hold When the world falls apart from the start, I've been abandoned So hear me when I say, I'm gon' be okay when you decide to walk away I'm hard to love, cause I was easy to leave No matter what I did, nobody ever really loved me Now I'm jaded and filled with regret The only thing I know for sure is that I'm hard to forget I'm hard to love, but baby, I'll be easy to leave No matter what I do, you ain't bout to stay with me This is the path that I was given, the cards I was dealt And all I really learned is how to love myself I'm hard to love I'm hard to love cuz I was never enough Don't even try it baby go on and give up I'm hard to love Ain't no changin baby this is just me I can't give you what you need so you might as well leave