Mess It Up

Okay it's 5:30 a.m Alarm tellin' me to get up make friends My mom tellin' me to not trust satan He'll give you the world, but you'll still feel vacant Say I'm strong, but I lied 'cause I still feel weak Play pretend with my eyes 'cause I cannot speak Who am I to disguise hide my feelings deep, deep, deep What if I lose it all? Tryna figure out where I'm 'spose to be What if I chose to fall? Will it mess your path and Your plans for me 'cause What's this lil life without problems I keep it going and forget that I got 'em It's just me alone I don't know who else could solve 'em It feels like things changed just like the leaves in the autumn I'm afraid to mess it up Waste it all and lose your trust How I fall away so many times, but you still call me son Put my faith up in the one Know the enemy will come But this word my loaded, uh But this word my loaded gun, gun, gun 'Cause I don't wanna mess it up My chains say you're not gettin' up The weight just makes me throw my love away, away, away The winds and waves may come, but I know the one who holds the sea Sometimes it's so hard to trust remind myself to believe Spirit come on down I need your love heart on my sleeve Tell myself I'm fine so I just put this song on repeat What if I lose it all? Tryna figure out where I'm 'spose to be What if I chose to fall? Will it mess Your path and Your plans for me 'cause What's this lil life without problems I keep it going and forget that I got 'em It's just me alone I don't know who else could solve 'em It feels like things changed just like the leaves in the autumn I'm afraid to mess it up Waste it all and lose your trust How I fall away so many times, but you still call me son Put my faith up in the One Know the enemy will come But this word my loaded, uh But this word my loaded gun, gun, gun