can't be my friend (memo)

Last night I thought I died Woke up six feet beneath my bed I opened up my eyes My head on fire can't pretend I ain't been telling lies I call you up to make amends You say "don't even try" You know I'll fuck it up again I feel like I'm running underwater Me against myself I never win And how come all my demons get along but I can't be my friend? So when my future calls I keep my phone on silent Act like it's not my fault I blame it on Verizon I keep romanticizin' All my toxic tendencies If I can't be my own best friend Then I'll be my worst enemy Oh yeah And I feel like I'm running underwater Me against myself I never win And how come all my demons get along but I can't be my friend? And I guess maybe karma finally caught up Swear I know exactly how it ends Oh I know I'm the only one I got but I can't be my friend