Are You Proud of Me Now?

You've heard this all before I'm sat still staring at paper There's things behind the page for later Oh, I've grown tired Drinking senselessly and wild I've been yearning for surprise And now, they've caught me in this chamber There's new profanity displayed as they pull on the lever So they made our homes filled with deceivers Oh, it's gone too long The machine was built too strong Now it seeps through my core And keeps me held to inky craters Make me feel alive Lies, lies, it was pain on the walls The size of this beating heart takes us all back down again I reopened memories You stood and took the bow Are you proud of me now? We want you, we want you here to work for us right now (ooh, right now) I worked hard to walk away from here Are you proud of me now? We need you, we need to show you've not moved on right now (ooh, right now) I sank deep, you stuck me on repeat Are you proud of me now? Want you here, need you here Need to show you've got more work right now Work, work right, work, work right now They want me here, they need me here They have to show me I've got work right now Deceived by carnal horns, ripping organs out by the cleavers Too soon to say I'm a believer Oh, how I tried to get lost when worlds collided Find my own way once deciding to get off the ground But you dragged me down How's my family? Where's my sanity? Better never knowing when the cavernous reality settles in I won't win, can't begin to tell you everything's a lie, and I'm a victim of insanity Leaving me to rot, to absorb what soon is lost Hoping unity brings me community Hoping on a pipe dream never to redeem When they stop making me feel alive We want you, we want you here to work for us right now We need you, we need to show you've not moved on right now We want you, we want you here to work for us right now We need you, we need you, we need you You've not moved on Lies, lies, it was pain on the walls (moved on, moved on, work right now) The size of this beating heart takes us all back down again (moved on, moved on, on right now) I reopened memories (moved on, moved on, on right now) You stood and took the bow Are you proud of me now? We want you, we want you here to work for us right now (ooh, right now) I worked hard to walk away from here Are you proud of me now? We need you, we need to show you've not moved on right now (ooh, right now) I sank deep, you stuck me on repeat Are you proud of me now? We want you, we want you here to work for us right now I played nicely for the longest time Are you proud of me now? We need you, we need to show you've not moved on right now The dark secrets have deprived me of light, and I'll find it down below Want you here, need you here Need to show you've got more work right now Work, work right, work, work right now They want me here, they need me here They have to show me I've got work right now Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I paid the toll for staying dormant by the side of the curb again Come and flow with me Close your eyes, and you will see he brought us all to die again Are you proud of me now? You stood and took the bow Are you proud of me now?