I'm so tired of trying and failing that I can only do a free verse

That isn't how you make the dream work

Never wasted my time doing research

I keep my head in the sand

My failing influences don't know my name but they'll find me

One day I'll rip this entry out my diary

When I'm so famous I go into hiding

Dear diary

I got a bitch in the hood that I drink with to feel okay

Gave another bitch out in Defiance, Ohio my hoodie but still won't date

She has a bra like a pillowcase

but no taste for a talker that disobeys

I've had conversations with my bearded dragon more thoughtful, like "this old thing"

Third-degree burns

Hit a tree with my dream car

Back in the Honda

Look like a retard

Life took the track straight down like a theme park

Hit up my first kiss

Talk about a restart

Why's everything hard

I'm even awkward around my little brother

Often discomfort will lead me to blocking out others

I dropped all my ride or die's, broads, and my lovers

Dear Diary

(Dear Diary)

Father forgive me if I've not forgiven my father

It's just hard to look at the man that I idolized treating his own like a foster

As a young'n, I was hated

A punk without a brain in

Was shoved in isolation

Now I'm 20 and I'm jaded

You wonder why I yell so much

I love to act abrasive

Plus I've never felt heard

and I'm running out of patience

Dear invisible audience you're my journal through the grey-ness

Hide your faces when you're near me

I'm the first to elucidate it

Stand behind me

Don't get noticed

It's not worth it to be patent

I'm the giant to be awakened

You're the Titans I'm Uranus

I love it when i'm so violent on mic I feel like God

I chew my fingers to the bone

And my eyes recede in fog

Close my eyes and shake my head like Ray Charles took three 8balls

My girl's appalled

Cause she don't see this side of me

With her I'm calm

I rap fast cause I'm explosive

And I could pop any moment

I never gave a damn about the gimmick

I was copying Token and learned I liked how I was letting out the rawest emotions

In harsh tone

My hoarse throat

I've had enough

I gotta go

Yeah