if im honest

I didn't mean to let you down or be cold Hope I see you around when I'm old I'm running out of options It doesn't seem like you want anything tangible Just a little out of reach Yeah, that's close enough for me And I don't feel anything if I'm honest But I'm not I had a dream about my old apartment I went back to where I started and I did it all the same I don't believe in sleeping with my ghosts How was I supposed to know That you were talking shit in code And it doesn't mean anything if I'm honest But I'm not If I see you it will be the same When you're standing in the doorway I will feel the pull Tethered down to the perfect ball and chain I'll be pulling all the weight when you go And it doesn't mean anything if I'm honest And it doesn't mean anything if I'm honest And I don't feel anything cause I promised That I won't