Aftermath

How did I become the toxic one? I keep on trying to unlearn the person I've become Why did I ignore all of the signs? You went from someone I admired to someone I despise Thought leaving you'd be easy But what's good is never easy And now I'm stuck in therapy So I changed everything that you hated Hurt me then convinced me I was wrong Only kissed me when I had my makeup on And I caved, instead of running, I waited For you to care enough to fix yourself Ain't it ironic now it's me that needs the help? So even when I'm fine, I can't tell If I'm happy or I'm sad 'Cause no one ever talks about the aftermath Guess it's normal when you're sad to speak your mind They won't tell you that you're crazy They might even say they're sorry I'm supposed to stay connected to my friends I can have a fight, doesn't have to be the end I knew you were the problem Now I'm the one with problems So I'm still stuck in therapy So I changed everything that you hated Hurt me, then convinced me I was wrong Only kissed me when I had my makeup on And I caved, instead of running, I waited For you to care enough to fix yourself Ain't it ironic now it's me that needs the help? So even when I'm fine, I can't tell If I'm happy or I'm sad 'Cause no one ever talks Yeah, even when I'm fine, I can't tell If I'm happy or I'm sad 'Cause no one ever talks about the aftermath