Birth

September 9th, 2004, 6:34 pm World came to a stop and bowed their heads as my new life begins Parents crying, doctors crying, 'cause I look like a prophet twin Doctors told my mama don't work out 'cause I was the hidden gem 18 years the 18th year saw life for what it was Only I control what's in my life, no parent, friend, or blood Treated my pain like funyun' crumbs, sweep under the rug Demons turn to cockroaches, now my bed is filled with bugs Can you feel me I'm feeling a different feeling Heart was growing holes on the inside Went to the dentist, they can't give a filling Doc can't prescribe a prescription Pastor can't give out a scripture Trauma not getting attention Life not giving me adventures 365 days, 18 times To really feel like I was living took til the 18th time Cause I've been getting trained to be a slave since 2009 So when I'm thinking for myself, its too much to handle at one time In 0'10, I wasn't 10 but would pretend that I was 10 Cause I was mama's only child I saw more than some average kids All the fuss between my parents Out in public, I'm comparing If my parents still together, what it help what I inherit But now I'm older, thanking God they're not together Help me have perspective, thinking and thankful for what's for better Molded me into a man, but no man is among my level No more hanging out with young boys, I'm kicking it with rebels Figured out that I was special in 2020 At 17, realized the world that's out there, probably for me Maybe the different style of rap could change a culture or plenty I understand if they don't let me in, it's not they resent me It just means that they don't understand, never seen something different When everything in the city is glorified for killing Never mind, they're not gonna hear your boy till I get some millions But God's gonna find a way to bring this to you when shit hit the ceiling When shit hit the ceiling, I cried and I cried all night My girlfriend asks me how I'm doing, I say I'm not alright The pressure getting to me heavy, it's taking over my life And then the sun had come out and I was feeling alright And now I'm telling the world I'm 18, chasing my dreams Telling you your dream is out there, it is not make-believe It is not make-believe Telling you your dream is out there it is not make-believe What's going on voice memo's It's lareezy checking in Im on my bike ride right today and You know I usually ride my bike to escape the thoughts at home Like ever since I graduated and turned 18 it kind of just seem like This life is just really real, like really real I just be having that feeling like I'm just like this lil kid in this big ol world I don't know, maybe I just be trippin