3 Summers

Don't kid yourself Don't tell yourself that you're not evil 'Cause they're cheering you on Like you've never done wrong Don't you pretend the world is treating us all equal When a person can starve as another one hops in a Lyft Plus to JFK, to Europe, expenses paid I know it's not okay but I still participate How hard can you go and for how long can you sustain it? When the force that fights back doesn't ever relax It's so relentless, oh, how long can you defend against a cheat code At a furious pace with a smile on your face 'Til they pick you up off the floor With more effort than before? It's the fate of not being bored You're not with us anymore If I can't keep myself from speaking loud Where am I gonna fit in the real world? If I can't help myself from freaking out How am I gonna live? I want the warmest breeze to blow I want the banks and schools to close I want the universe to glow for you I danced and sang and I held my friends For three whole summers And fell into their laps When the windows went black I needed love, I needed warmth, I needed pressure Sticking tight to my skin, squeezing out what's within that At night keeps me awake, in crowds keeps me afraid Heaven is in the rain dripping from the ceiling If I can't keep myself from speaking loud Where am I gonna fit in the real world? If I can't help myself from freaking out How am I gonna live? I want the warmest breeze to blow I want the banks and schools to close I want the universe to glow until it's Too bright for our eyes Too much to keep inside Too smart to criticize Too dumb to rationalize Did you have a good time? Got hurt but feeling fine Goofed up on bad wine Stay young until you die Stay young until you die Stay young until you die Stay young until you die I sat around and I watched the wind For three whole summers An eternity lapsed as I swallowed attacks and just held them in I can't be fixed, so I'm just aching 'Cause the longer I go Is, the more that I know That I'm different than before And you can't help me anymore ooh, ohh Anymore, ooh, ooh Anymore, ooh, ooh Anymore, ooh, ooh Anymore, ooh, ooh Anymore, ooh, ooh Anymore, ooh, ooh Anymore, ooh, ooh Anymore, ooh, ooh Anymore, ooh, ooh Anymore, ooh, ooh Anymore, ooh, ooh Anymore, ooh, ooh Anymore, ooh, ooh Anymore, ooh, ooh