Free

I'm just a baby, still a baby trying to figure it out My intuition couldn't listen, but it's listening now And I'm hearing me saying it after years of not saying it I was drowning in waves of it, like all of the time Kissing my sanity, like "Shut up, Caroline, you aren't crazy" And now I know why It wasn't easy, it wasn't patient Having the arrow, but not knowing where to aim it Out in the open, it isn't painless And it may never be But this time I get to be free, free Free, free It isn't free being free And it may never be And now I'm sitting on the couch and Lauren's holding my head (Laying on the couch, holding my head) Now there's before and there is after, that's what she said (There is before and there is after) And I'm hearing me saying it after years of not saying it I was drowning in waves of it, like all of the time Kissing my sanity, like "Shut up, Caroline, you aren't crazy" Oh, and now I know why It wasn't easy, it wasn't patient Having the arrow, but not knowing where to aim it Out in the open, it isn't painless And it may never be But this time I get to be free, free Free, free It isn't free being free And it may never be It may never be It may never be At least I get to be free This time I get to be free, free I had to know I'm not alone to let it out I had to let a little go to feel it now And when I'm lonely and the tears come back around I got my love, I got my friends to hold it down I had to know I'm not alone to figure out Everything is not my fault somehow And now I'm more than when I had to go without That I won't leave her now Say you can be my family and I will hold you close If someone understands me Then finally, I know