Lost

I can’t go and face my own reality right now,

Went and saw me at my lows so you chose not to be around,

Still I deal with all the problems not the one to worry about,

Circle hate my on the outside don’t know what that be about

I’m just feeling sadness in my conscious,

I’m just lookin for a peace of mind you know I want it,

Everyone bring problems it feel like a fucking gauntlet,

I can’t be the one to solve em,

Feeling shot down no revolver

Might numb myself with these models,

Might numb myself with these bottles,

I be stuck in my sorrows,

Shit I’ll try to be sober tomorrow

Inside I’m hollow,

Still the one they go and follow,

Reaching for my fucking calling,

Gotta catch myself when I’m falling

I can’t make no realization of the moment,

Made mistakes to you so now I gotta go and own it,

Don’t got no excuse but know my mind was fully stolen,

And you left some scars on me I swear you left me swollen

And now I don’t know where to go anymore,

Having these attacks and imma have many more,

Imma let it fly imma go and let it soar,

Imma let if fly like I be running up the score

I’m glad I seen through the manipulation,

Everyone that turn they back it give me extra motivation,

Do everything I can to go resist my temptations,

Yeah I gotta go without it I don’t need no sensation

Gotta keep my distance I’m extracting,

Gotta keep those drugs away I know they will distract me,

Called em out they say I’m in my feels overreacting,

I was so invisible to see it was a bad thing

When you gon sum it up AyJee always be on top,

Tell me to run it up say they ain’t had enough,

Watching me heading up while I be out of love,

Gotta stay clean it feel good to be out of drugs,

They try set us up and take everything out of us,

Won’t get away with it hope you ain’t out of luck,

Study my moves like a mofuckin’ analyst,

Tried to go warn em’ that they couldn’t handle us

Now you can’t go turn the pages,

Care bout my squad so I’m upping the wages,

Should know by now that I’m destined for greatness,

Cut off the leeches I do it so shameless,

Had to go question who I want to hang with,

Can’t shoot a shot at me not even aiming,

This rap shit too easy it’s like I be gaming,

If you go and switch sides better be some explaining 

I can’t go and face my own reality right now,

Went and saw me at my lows so you chose not to be around,

Still I deal with all the problems not the one to worry bout,

Circle hate my on the outside don’t know what that be about

My life is deja vu keep getting stuck up in the same things,

To see me go and fail they gonna spend all day arranging,

But all imma do is prevail,

I’m falling right off of the rails,

Know they fake they telling tails,

Feel relief when I exhale 

Feel the pain up in these notes,

I can’t control what they gonna evoke,

Still making moves I ain’t talking emotes,

Can’t know where I am gotta keep it remote

Know I mean it when I say I’m gon get my revenge,

All of this anxiety making me lack to comprehend

I can’t go and face my own reality right now,

Went and saw me at my lows so you chose not to be around,

Still I deal with all the problems not the one to worry about,

Circle hate my on the outside don’t know what that be about

I can’t make no realization of the moment,

Made mistakes to you so now I gotta go and own it,

Don’t got no excuse but know my mind was fully stolen,

And you left some scars on me I swear you left me swollen