i shouldn’t be here

I always thought that I'd find peace in never being Awake long enough to feel anything I wouldn't venture past the edge of listening 'Cause there was nothing to the table I could bring And it gets harder to conceal it as the evenings past And every moment of this year competes to be my last When I'm feeling myself fall you're tightening your grasp Oh, oh-oh, oh Oh, I shouldn't be here The things I've put you through There's nothing without you Oh, I shouldn't be here The things I've made you lose I'm nothing without you I wish you didn't have the strength to carry me I know it's hard to watch me walk unsteadily I'd understand if I'm not where you want home to be You shouldn't have to be afraid every time you leave And it gets harder to believe it as the evenings pass That we're now half way through the year and on my feet I stand I think there's something in me still that lets you pull me back Oh, oh-oh, oh Oh, I shouldn't be here The things I've put you through There's nothing without you Oh, I shouldn't be here The things I've made you lose I'm nothing without you You follow me into the night Just so I can see the sun rise I know you always seem to be alright Oh, oh-oh, oh, oooh I promise you that I will find A way to give you peace of mind So, please hold on for another while (ooh, ooh) Oh, I shouldn't be here The things I've put you through I'm nothing without you