No Wish (feat. Phonte & Raphael Saadiq)

Wish that I Yeah, didn't have to wish at all But life hits you hard, back against the wall Ain't no wishing on a star We was adolescents wishing for foreign cars To roll through the gutter like bowling balls, just showing off (Slow down, slow down) Could slow down this fast life Handles on the breaks Perfectly trying to handle your mistakes, same Wishing with no candles, no cake flame (Wish that I) Had stress relieved Wish the loved ones that was lost had more breaths to breathe Wish we didn't speak another Have to utter another rest in peace, nah (Wish that I) Have to be the one To always keep it together, like stitches My shoulders where my chip is My soul's where I go for riches Cause ain't no genie in a bottle taking wishes New Tigalo, new Tigalo, new Tigalo I was 6 years old, she was a neighbor Who said come here and do me a favor A kiss I gave her Lips filled with the artificial flavors of candy that we shared Cherry Now and Laters made our tongues red But so many things went unsaid Cause if my mama found out she would annihilate us Confused and aroused by her misbehavior No one to talk nowhere to turn so I put pen to paper How can a bad touch feel good? How do we make amends when we use one another? Call me a friend then abuse one another Not powerless the cowardice of you motherfuckers To leave me all alone with new feelings I'm confronted with Was mindin' my own and I ain't ask for none of this, but With some acknowledgement I coulda got in front of it To keep my wife and kids from bearing the brunt of it There's gotta be a path to healing and revealing All the feelings of shame that's been dividing me in half Anxiety on overdrive reminders of the past I'm shook, scared to look, word to Prodigy and Hav All I wanted was my people to be proud of me and ask Every once in a while, "How you doing?" for some follow through Tried to close the door on my emotions But loneliness is not the same as solitude Wish that I could talk to the younger me To tell him that I'm proud And that he is allowed to express everything he's feeling underneath The joy and the pain is part of the game And you shoulda been protected But part of me regrets Pushing you to the limit cause you gotta be the best Went from left for dead on the mausoleum floor To being celebrated on the colosseum steps No fear I am here to emancipate you Be sure to stop and smell the sassafras On your way to masterclass for all the times you prayed to God Hoping this too shall pass like Babe Ruth 20 years still here it's not a fad or a fetish 40 bars in now it's hopefully embedded Any nigga wanna test he gon woefully regret it I'm Pastor Tigallo don't you ever fucking forget it, n*gga