Hard Headed

(ADELSO on this) Tryna change my way of thinkin', I just don't know where to start Tend to keep my head up, but my mind falling apart And money don't heal the pain, I just hide it with shit I bought I put chains around my neck, but can't put chains around my heart I let people into my life who said it's gon' be alright Thinkin' that they wouldn't, but they would for the right price I think love is overrated anyway 'Cause if the love real, it shouldn't fade away And I used to pray for better days, they ain't ever came Love is overrated anyways, it don't mean a thing It just turn my heart darker, but made me think smarter When pain come from someone you love, it hit harder Trustin' all my brothers, know I love 'em to the death of me Loyalty should come with the love, that's the recipe Think I need a scouter, it be hard to read yo' energy And you ain't treat me right, but I still gave you what's left of me They say live and learn, but when I'ma start learning? And If time really heal, then why am I still hurting? 'Cause I been waiting, Lord, I been so patient Feel like it's the same old thing, just a different day Same fake love, they just showin' it in different ways Keep fallin' for it and I don't get it Heart too big and I'm hard headed Everybody telling me that time gon' heal me If it don't happen soon, Father Time gon' kill me 'Cause I can't see clearly, I don't know where I'm goin' Blind, but my eyes wide open Turned they back on me, bet they won't do that shit again I remember when the mirror was my one and only friend Even that came to an end I learned how to love myself, Locked in and put my feelings on the shelf Remember I was cryin' out for help and I felt so ignored? Feel like I been crossed by everyone that I had feelings for I'ma be the greatest, that's the only thing I know for sure Tryna ride my wave when they the ones who threw me overboard Look at how them tables turn She ain't wait for me, but want me to wait for her I can't do that, baby I'm the only one that can save me Appreciate the beauty in the struggle 'cause it made me They say live and learn, but when I'ma start learning? And If time really heal, then why am I still hurting? 'Cause I been waiting, Lord, I been so patient Feel like it's the same old thing, just a different day Same fake love, they just showin' it in different ways Keep fallin' for it and I don't get it Heart too big and I'm hard headed