Enough

Yeah, I wasn't right within, was lying, tryna find a slim openin'

To cope with grim realities of hopelessness, the casualties of broken men

Unhappily devoted when it hit me

All the walls were tryna kiss me, they were closin' in

I'm soakin' in a tub of "How the fuck did this all happen?"

Can I fasten my seatbelt before the tree and me are wrapped in a blanket? I can't escape it

The brakes that I have ain't breakin', the weight that I feel is achin'

They say we don't feel the same shit

The pain isn't real, I'm famous, the cage that I'm in is dangerous

I'm chained to perception, anxious

Every day I'm faced with the anguish of fakin' and savin' face

It's so drainin', I pray it changes

Self-hatred's an understatement for making the bed I lay in

My faith and my patience shakin', I'm cravin' a new awakenin'

I'm chasin' myself, I'm wavin'

Complainin' that I'm evading, betrayin' myself, restrainin'

Enslaved by my past, I'm racin' that ancient indoctrination

I'm blazin' whatever's failin', and scrapin' up the remainin'

Reshapin' my soul, creatin', embracin' a new foundation

No swayin', no more decayin', the process of excavation

Surveillin' what needs replacin' is daily, can't get complacent

I'm takin' solo vacations, I need solitude, I think I bottled too

Many problems due to not

Wantin' to upset my family, plus I got the news that sadness ain't allowed from the same crowd that turns around and asks for sad songs

Tell me how, 'cause as a man you cannot frown, don't make a sound, just stand up proud

No one appreciatin' us until we're dead and underground

It's no surprise that suicide is super high, it's not unusual

'Cause men know that they only get their flowers at their funeral

We're hardenin' ourselves instead of gardenin' ourselves

Suppressed emotions, we're alone, so now we're targetin' ourselves

No one to talk to out of pride and fear of comin' off weak

Some women lookin' at you lesser if there's tears on your cheek

But if there's tears tattooed, that same girl is a freak

So they're attracted to the pain unless they hear the pain speak

Society romanticized the silent sufferer

Stoicism is sexy, unless he can't show that he fucks with her, if that's your girl be done with her

'Cause if you're numb to the pain, then you're numb to the pleasure

Whether it's sun or it's rain

To you it's all the same weather, these days I'm better off retreated and reserved

On a resort, then re-emerge feelin' recharged and reassured that I'm

Enough