Not That Beautiful

I'm bringing a vest and I run from the past I pick up the phone just to find I'm alone It's wearing me out and the weight of my sins Killed the faith that I had so it's time I begin Back to this darkness to see how it feels I was the one that you thought you could heal Now that it's over it's time to move on 'Cause I was the righteous and you were the wrong Every time I try to run and hide I feel you're haunting me I'm addicted to the games that you play You make me feel so pitiful Like you're so beautiful Your heart is beating me to death every day But I am not that pitiful You're not that beautiful I suffer inside just to feel I'm alive I bury the truth 'cause I know it's a lie I never said all the things that I should say 'Cause you were the master and I was a slave If I could find me a drug to forget you I'd overdose on the day that I met you Kill all the drama, it's time to move on 'Cause I am the righteous and you were the wrong Every time I try to run and hide I feel you haunting me I'm addicted to the games that you play You make me feel so pitiful Like you're so beautiful Your heart is beating me to death every day But I am not that pitiful You're not that beautiful I'm not that pitiful You're not so beautiful Every time I look into your eyes I see a demon in disguise You fucking make me sick, you are the one that I despise You take me, you break me, you feed me lies And all thet you gave me in return was my demise So maybe I'm just crazy for believing this shit But goddamn I can't believe I'm fucking dealing with this It's like a nightmare and I can't wake up I just can't wake up I'm addicted to the games that you play You make me feel so pitiful Like you're so beautiful Your heart is beating me to death every day But I am not that pitiful You're not that beautiful I'm not that pitiful You're not so beautiful