Sweet Sabotage

You could say that my life is a mess It's contradicting what every one else says You're up here living out your best life But you don't know what's going on inside Always been too sensitive Told my whole life that's what it is Sticking like fear The words I hear And no one ever knows That my Sweet self sabotaging hold on me Bleeding lungs so I can hardly breathe Dragging me down to save me Drowning in my brains hatred Lessons in the patience Of sweet sabotaging me Learning to love All these messy parts I hide The girl who's in disguise Who's been hurt so learnt to lie In my shadows I feel safe I can go and lay to waste This temporary forever My solitude and saviour From my Sweet self sabotaging hold on me Bleeding lungs so I can hardly breathe Dragging me down to save me Drowning in my brains hatred Lessons in the patience Of sweet sabotaging me When does the world all make sense Finally free no problems left Does anybody know We're on a rock that floats Making this bit up as we go Sweet self sabotaging hold on me Bleeding lungs so I can hardly breathe Dragging me down to save me Drowning in my brains hatred Lessons in the patience Of sweet sabotaging me Sweet self sabotaging hold on me Bleeding lungs so I can hardly breathe Dragging me down to save me Drowning in my brains hatred When will I be free Of sweet self sabotaging me