Catch the Rain

Every day I pray that all this pain will go away I hold my faith and trust that God will lead the way I know I'll make it through the storm and through the rain And I won't break until I see a brighter day The pain never goes away I suppress these feelings in my chest, then they move up to my neck And decapitate, I'm obsessed with time I know I can't get it back, so when I catch my head It's only half the wait, I smile on Saturdays The weekend's when I strengthen and deactivate And then Monday comеs around and I relive the samе The cycle is a storm I chase, but I can't seem to catch the rain It's war when I'm in the booth Just me inside a room and this liquor always tells the truth Got my phone inside my hand, but I turned off my notifications 'Cause the sight of one can fuck around and chase my mood I hit record My life's melodic pain they've never heard before They get addicted to that sound and then I make them more And now I understand why they say when it rains it pours Don't wanna live my life inside this cage, I'm stuck in a retro grave As history repeats itself, I seclude myself and ask for space I think I'm planted in the storm But I can't catch the rain, cover up a master pain, I think I got a- The pain never goes away (the pain never goes away) I suppress these feelings in my chest, then they move up to my neck And decapitate, I'm obsessed with time I know I can't get it back, so when I catch my head It's only half the wait, I smile on Saturdays (Saturdays) The weekend's when I strengthen and deactivate (deactivate) And then Monday comes around and I relive the same The cycle is a storm I chase, but I can't seem to catch the rain 'Cause I'm having trouble getting used to me 'Cause I remember how it used to be I meet new people every day and you see, usually I don't know if they like me or they motherfuckin' using me And that's why I'm just closed off and antisocial In and out of conversations I'm compensating, my music's my excuse to say I'm vocal My greatest hits are my worst times compiled I bottled up and shared to the world and that's what made 'em global And that's the fucked up part Popping prescriptions while giving vivid descriptions To people who clap and listen While you stuck inside a prison, slave to the algorithm Cope with the mechanisms like liquor and chasing women But that's what they want, then you wake up and it's all over Life is nothing but a vapor, once you blink, you're older Your heart gets colder, they meddle in your mind The systems you gave your whole lifetime implodes and starts to corrode And you're looking over your shoulder Thinking how you supposed to get through this life while being sober You lose composure, get to drinking for the closure Then you're right back in the cycle where those motherfuckers want ya, say The pain never goes away (the pain never goes away) I suppress these feelings in my chest, then they move up to my neck And decapitate, I'm obsessed with time I know I can't get it back, so when I catch my head It's only half the wait, I smile on Saturdays (Saturdays) The weekend's when I strengthen and deactivate (deactivate) And then Monday comes around and I relive the same The cycle is a storm I chase, but I can't seem to catch the rain Every day I pray that all this pain will go away (Dear God, please burn every bridge that brings my life back to pain) I hold my faith and trust that God will lead the way (amen) I know I'll make it through the storm and through the rain And I won't break until I see a brighter day