How am I supposed to feel because I’m not knowing

There’s way too many thoughts in my brain that won’t stop floating

I’m sorry that I’m not in control of my emotions

Sometimes they just come out cause I'm not that good at holding

How am I supposed to feel because I’m not knowing

There’s way too many thoughts in my brain that won’t stop floating

I’m sorry that I’m not in control of my emotions

Sometimes they just come out cause I'm not that good at holding

After dark clouds I’m still going through shit

Still can’t escape no matter how far I’m moving

Time won’t heal if you say you’re improving

Life is storm on the ocean and I’m cruising

But my ship is rocking in an unstable movement

Still asking myself why do I do this

Why do I do this

Talk to me

Set me off you so you can go see all of me

Maybe you don’t want to cause it’s hard to see

I don’t call for help that shit will call for me

Honestly

One day I might let myself go consciously

As losing my temper isn’t odd for me

Don’t call me regular that’s an anomaly

How am I supposed to feel because I’m not knowing

There’s way too many thoughts in my brain that won’t stop floating

I’m sorry that I’m not in control of my emotions

Sometimes they just come out cause I'm not that good at holding

Everyday I wake up as a failure I don’t play games I’m know I won’t win in

Have you ever seen me play a sport I don’t even see that shit to begin with

What’s the point of even going forward the hope won’t replace the happiness I’m missing

Every minute I live in I’m sinning impatiently waiting for the pain just to be finished

I can’t help but cry and weep even though that's not gonna do shit

I’m trying my best in this world so I apologize that I’m so stupid

Like what the fuck am I even doing

I’m tired of all of these mood swings

Anger and sadness is running my life and that’s how I’m moving

Music is the only therapist I got so that's why I choose it

But if I lose my interest in it I’m not gonna be alive

I can’t help others with their problems cause shit I already need help with mine

And apologize for all the times I fucking lied

Or maybe that was one of many right there I really just can’t make up my mind

These emotions are controlling my life

And all I say is that I’m fine

When I cry about almost night

Came to the conclusion I'm not alright

And I don't have the strength the fight

The only solution is getting high

And you can't help me even if you try

How am I supposed to feel because I’m not knowing

There’s way too many thoughts in my brain that won’t stop floating

I’m sorry that I’m not in control of my emotions

Sometimes they just come out cause I'm not that good at holding