Beautiful Agony

I desire peace, I'm having trouble with the chaos hand in me Never short on belief, and finding's harder the more I seek I'm down on bended knee Is it so wrong to search for stillness, sweet relief? Sick of grinding my teeth I'll just focus on the rhythm of my feet One in front of the other So much yet to discover Won't be whole until I see all the strength in me Right, left, right, then left again Those I trust can be counted on my hands We're no longer brothers, were we ever friends? Attendance was much higher when the party began Got a family to feed Nose to the grindstone, having stomach to scorn on me I'll keep sweating, I'll keep working, we're all suffering Determination is the key to our meaning I know there's a purpose, there's a reason in our hearts beating What makes things precious, is that life is so fleeting Tragedy and grief repeats But there is a peace found between Tragedy and grief repeats But there is a peace found between Now I face the fate (and it's just as I feared) It's taking form, a demon with sharpened teeth Never wanted to preach (I never thought I'd be here) But life gets harder, there's evil in me Tragedy repeats (now I'm seeing so clear) A vicious cycle from the sky to the concrete Is it so hard too believe? (Got a reason not to) That our foes ready their venom in our time of grace In our time of grace I'm ready, I'm waiting And I refuse to be the one that's fading So hold steady, I'm making this moment short It's mine for the taking Beautiful agony Beautiful agony Tragedy and grief repeats But there is a peace found between