Love What I Hate

Is it to numb how I feel? Is it to take me far away from what is real? Is there a hole in my soul? I know it's killing me but I just can't let go Why? Do I love what I hate Do I give when you take Am I nothing but one big mistake? I can't break from this spell Can't escape from this hell So conflicted, addicted Can't explain all the ways Why do I love what I hate? I'm so obsessed I'm ashamed Am I the habit looking for something to blame? You show me everything I lack My insecurities, they keep me coming back Why? Do I love what I hate Do I give when you take Am I nothing but one big mistake? I can't break from this spell Can't escape from this hell So conflicted, addicted Can't explain all the ways Why do I love what I hate? We all do, we all do, we all love what we hate We all do, we all do, we all love what we hate We all do, we all do, we all love what we hate I am guilty We are guilty Do I love what I hate Do I give when you take Am I nothing but one big mistake? I can't break from spell Can't escape from this hell So conflicted, addicted Can't explain all the ways I can't explain all the ways Why do I love what I hate? What I hate! Why do I love what I hate?! What I hate What I hate Why do I Do I love what I hate