Oblivion

I've got one pack of cigarettes from the night I gave up Just in case I need to pull them out if this all gets too much I stuffed them into the back of a drawer With letters and a broken watch And there's enough pills in there that I could make this stop Every day I'm getting closer to giving in You don't wanna see the situations I've been living in I don't get out much but neither do you I beat myself up the whole night through The only way I win is by not giving in to oblivion I've got a fistful of dreams you would not believe And I hold them close and carry them everywhere with me Cause I don't trust myself, and I know you feel the same But there is nothing I can to do to show you that I've changed It's a little like Christmas It's a lot like a war Wasting time with the same old lines, I can't force this anymore Distressing images flash across our screens I'm a crisis actor cast as the romantic lead I've got one pack of cigarettes from the night I gave up And there's enough pills in there that I could make this stop Every day I'm getting closer to giving in You don't wanna see the desolation I've been living in I don't get out much but neither do you I beat myself up black and blue The only way I win is by not giving in to oblivion