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Phosphenes
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Phosphenes was released on January 1, 2018 by Rise Records as a part of the album Where I Go When I Am Sleeping
January 1, 2018
LabelRise Records
LanguageEnglish
BPM140
Melodicness
Acousticness
Valence
Danceability
Energy

Music Video

Music Video

Lyrics

[Verse 1]
I feel the veins that sit behind my eyes
Grow varicose as gentle light starts
Filtering through fractured blinds
That shades the world from me
You'd always watch me as I'd wax and wane
Fluoxetine and slow decay
Dependence on a medicine
Is hell without relief
[Verse 2]
I am bereft of the ineffable
Affections I feel I am owed
My vacancy and apathy
Are all that I have left to show
For years I spent in isolation
For chemicals that took the place of
Fleeting moments in which I found
Reprieve from misery
[Verse 3]
And it seems the only solace I'm afforded is now
Instead of wanting to kill myself I just sleep
I guess progress really isn't what I thought it would be
And as I lay supine and let the phosphenes fade
After another collapse I'm left to contemplate if I'm really getting better
Or if I'm just numb to the feeling of falling apart
[Verse 4]
My dichotomy has always been
That I'm scared of burdening those who love me
Knowing I need help before I die afraid and lonely
But maybe it's all in my head
[Verse 5]
The irony I face is whenever I try to medicated my aches
It kills the only part of me that makes me want to stay
[Verse 6]
And as I lay supine and let the phosphenes fade
After another collapse I'm left to contemplate if I'm really getting better
Or if I'm just numb to the feeling of falling apart
Written by: Adam Smith, Liam Torrance, Maximilian Nicolai, Thomas Weaver, Toby Evans
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