I over think about everything

Im not the type to give it a second thought

Im the type to give it a second third and fourth and fifth like shit

If only I could give a fraction of the time

that I've spent reminiscing to something different

Yeah, I should try

But we know that'll never happen

If you try Following the train of thought

you won't track it

it's the cold and distant feelings that are filling the fire

I do it so often

 I think the truth is a lie ya

A single commotion is then coupled with something I concoct for my own trouble

I double down but the End result is me with bottled up emotions

Im hoping

That I won't to resort to liquor

Cause there's a lick of irony

When im trying to be free but im chasing spirits of these dead dreams

Im believing its relieving cause every thought be leaving but the pain is only deepened till the next day when im reliving everything I was trying to be fixing

It's only a temporary stop

and it's not what I want to or got to rely on

I gotta do it on my own

But if I am left to my own thoughts

I am so sure of all the ways this can fall

cause I've done it all before

So anything you say, and I say when we conversate

 im predicting every response already

So just let me go

I don't wanna do this anymore

so

 

Walk this way

Walk with me

And you will feel the pain

 

The way im thinking

 I been trying to kill it

The way im feeling

 I been trying to kill it

And the way that im dealing

I aint feeling anymore

I been looking for the key for any door

 

But it's difficult when its involuntary

Its volatile and over bearing

Im Worrying about what could happen in every scenario

But it's so hard to know

yeah

I try to tackle it, but it is shackling my happiness

But

It's just unnecessary

The power my brain has over me

yeah, it can be scary

Im Automatically thinking the worst

All I gather be is fear and it got me constantly tripping for shore

 In A back and forth from im fairly sure to of course or hmm maybe not to an all-out war

Like what will they think of me if i did this or that

Over think about over thinking

  how about that

I gotta remember for all the members in my life

how often am I reflecting on actions that they've done in their time

now multiply that by the amount of randoms you seeing in a day right

No one is ever thinking or reminiscing on that embarrassing shit that you did way back when

so relax you really shouldn't care a bit

And thats it

Trying to find the root of what is bringing out the worrying in you and start working backwards

Cause the fact is

the war is easier than you think once you know how your brain and heart tick

You can reassess what needs to get the kick

Remembering your loyalty should always be in you