Fine by Time

I'm hurtin' inside,

my ears filled with them lies.

Been walkin' my life,

I need someone to ride.

They ask how I am,

I say I'm doin' fine.

I'm standin' on bidness,

and handlin' mine.

Chip on my shoulder,

I'll be fine by time.

I'm doin' good,

now guess who's lyin'.

Shit in the past,

trynn leave it behind.

It's hard when my Mama,

ran outta time.

Swear I be think bout this shit all the time.

Pause on the tape,

I'm trynna rewind.

You lucky that you cannot

see in my mind.

Happiness-

Is what I been trynna find.

Alone in my head,

I be feelin' confined.

You cannot fix me,

so please do not try.

I feel a lil better,

when I'm gettin' high.

I'm surfin' the waves,

and turnin' the tide.

Wish you could see it,

from my perspective.

Parents didn't get along,

had my feelings neglected.

Try to teach myself,

learn from they lessons.

It's fucked up now,

neither one in my presence.

Christmas come around,

she filt us wit presents.

Bought a pair of J's,

now you feelin' real special?

If I needed her,

man,

she'd be here in seconds.

I needed you,

man,

and you ain't even answer.

She mighta been drunk,

but at least she was here.

We'd fight all day,

but I knew that she cared.

Now that she's gone,

I'm in a corner in tears

and I'm so lost,

don't know how to feel.

I need time,

but I know I'll never heal.

I need change,

but I know you never will.

You was never worried,

so I'll worry 'bout myself.

You was never worried,

so I'll worry 'bout myself.

I'm hurtin' inside,

my ears filled with them lies.

Been walkin' my life,

I need someone to ride.

They ask how I am,

I say I'm doin' fine.

I'm standin' on bidness,

and handlin' mine.

Chip on my shoulder,

I'll be fine by time.

I'm doin' good,

now guess who's lyin'.

Shit in the past,

trynn leave it behind.

It's hard when my Mama,

ran outta time.

Mad over my feelings?

Why make me feel this way?

Really never asked for much,

I just hoped that you would stay.

Try to tell my feelings,

everyone runs away.

Feel no one understands,

maybe they will one day.

We gone watch the tables turn,

and you won't have a seat made.

You're so fuckin' jealous,

you can't even see straight.

Word to my Moms,

I was watchin' that the other day.

She mighta been drunk,

but at least she was here.

We'd fight all day,

but I knew that she cared.

Now that she's gone,

I'm in a corner in tears

and I'm so lost,

don't know how to feel.

I need time,

but I know I'll never heal.

I need change,

but I know you never will.

You was never worried,

so I'll worry 'bout myself.

You was never worried,

so I'll worry 'bout myself.

I'm hurtin' inside,

my ears filled with them lies.

Been walkin' my life,

I need someone to ride.

They ask how I am,

I say I'm doin' fine.

I'm standin' on bidness,

and handlin' mine.

Chip on my shoulder,

I'll be fine by time.

I'm doin' good,

now guess who's lyin'.

Shit in the past,

trynn leave it behind.

It's hard when my Mama,

ran outta time.

Smile on my face,

but inside my shit grievin'.

Smoke in my lungs,

so I'm barely breathin'.

I want some money,

don't know what I'm needin'.

Want some new friends,

but they change like the seasons.

Don't get the point,

someone give me a reason.

Lookin' to God,

but I'm battlin' demons.

Not one to argue,

we can come to agreement.

Don't like what I say,

you can take it or leave it.

Pray for the best,

but prepared for the worst.

I'm feelin' the pain,

and this shit really hurts.

Have trouble puttin' what I think

into words.

Been through all the shit,

now I need reimbursed.

Ask me 'bout what happened,

don't care what you heard.

I'll give you the truth,

don't know what it's worth.

Shit was goin' right,

then it took a left turn,

now I talk to my Mama's urn.

I'm hurtin' inside,

my ears filled with them lies.

Been walkin' my life,

I need someone to ride.

They ask how I am,

I say I'm doin' fine.

I'm standin' on bidness,

and handlin' mine.

Chip on my shoulder,

I'll be fine by time.

I'm doin' good,

now guess who's lyin'.

Shit in the past,

trynn leave it behind.

It's hard when my Mama,

ran outta time.

Swear I be think bout this shit all the time.

Pause on the tape,

I'm trynna rewind.

You lucky that you cannot

see in my mind.

Happiness-

Is what I been trynna find.

Alone in my head,

I be feelin' confined.

You cannot fix me,

so please do not try.

I feel a lil better,

when I'm gettin' high.