april's

My housemate's moving out and fuck I guess I ain't still 22 All I ever do is drink and listen to Blink 182 Never wanna grow up, I been waiting for my blow up For the come up I been running round in circles to the sun up I been getting so high lately so why do we pretend? I been feeling so down lately just please don't blame me Cus I been running out of secrets and I'm running out of time I been choking on my ego mix the vally with the wine I been working on my diet but I think I lost my mind Will I ever get better? Cus this year was the worst Lost it all it still hurts This April's even colder again Cus I been staying up late No lights, no sleep Swerving in the city damn it gets lonely This April's even colder again It's like I'm stuck in a rut Between a rock and a hard place I'm not growing up forever learning the hard way Use your love as a crutch As if it isn't enough But when the going gets tough Hope you know that I'm fucked in the head Like the last thing you said when you called me I sat through your words, they don't hurt I felt nothing But if it's panic attacks or a mental collapse I just hope that you know that I chose this Cus I been running out of secrets and I'm running out of time I been choking on my ego mix the vally with the wine I been working on my diet but I think I lost my mind Will I ever get better? Cus this year was the worst Lost it all it still hurts This April's even colder again Cus I been staying up late No lights, no sleep Swerving in the city damn it gets lonely This April's even colder again Firefly in the rain, lights burnin out I'm dropping out SOS can't hear a sound Now the walls are caving in I've got my arms spread wide but I'm stretched too thin It's like the floor collapsed, maybe I won't come back Will I ever get better? Cus this year was the worst Lost it all it still hurts This April's even colder again Cus I been staying up late No lights, no sleep Swerving in the city damn it gets lonely This April's even colder again