Oh, we missed it. Mass started a half hour ago

Darling.Who cares when it starts. It's church. Let's go

Mama, I wanna go with Daddy

And it's completely packed

I can tell from the second we walk in that this isn't some loosey-goosey come-as-you-are type of

place

Everyone's dressed for Sunday mass

Adam walks straight up the aisle to the front and asks people to scoot over

There's just enough room for the three of us to fit

Adam, Beckett, me

Please God, let nothing happen. Get us out of here without anyone noticing us

All to Jesus I surrender

All to him I freely give

I will ever love and trust him

In his presence daily give

I surrender all

I surrender all

All to thee my Blessed Savior

I surrender all

A reading from the altar of some sort's happening

I try to concentrate on the words

And I actually start thinking this might not be a complete shit show after all

But, then out of the corner of my eye, I see Adam's whole body shaking

He's quietly sobbing

And Beckett's patting his leg trying to comfort him

I turn and that's all the ignition Adam needs to release his cries right there in the pew

All eyes are now on us and looking to me to see if they should intervene

Hey, Adam, why don't we go outside and talk

No! I wanna stay Jess, and don't you dare take my son out of here

Beckett freezes. Eyes burning into mine. I start sweating

Everything now - the service, my son, Adam's public outburst continuing or not

All depends on my next words