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I'm just trying to relax I'm just gonna try and stay calm Gimme a minute I'm just trying to I'm just trying to relax I'm just gonna try and stay calm Gimme a minute I'm just trying to I'm just trying to relax I'm just gonna try and stay calm Gimme a minute I'm just trying to I'm just trying to relax I'm just gonna try and stay calm Gimme a minute I'm just trying to Nah, wait I'm on the rack I was told to stare at my hands For a bit, 'til I feel like a Just another attack Shut up While I sit and melt ice on my wrists 'til I feel like a Fuck off Man I mean it I just need a second to collect my thoughts so I can be a Can act like a human I'm not a real person I've told you before I can't deal with it I can't deal with it I can't deal with it I can't deal with it Fuck your eye contact Give me my repose back I mean it I'm fucking raging I'll uppercut you ya rat Come near me and I'll snap I feel so bad Wait I didn't mean that I need you I'm such a fucking radge Help me get my breath back Why can't I relax? Why can't I relax? I'm just trying to relax I'm just gonna try and stay calm Gimme a minute I'm just trying to I'm just trying to relax I'm just gonna try and stay calm Gimme a minute I'm just trying to I'm just trying to relax I'm just gonna try and stay calm Gimme a minute I'm just trying to I'm just trying to relax I'm just gonna try and stay calm Gimme a minute I'm just trying to Shut off I can't beat it I can't string a sentence together I'm all out of ideas Forever I mean it I'm not in control And I never will be Help I can't even See ya, I won't see ya Everyone come say goodbye to me now While I'm still here Fuck it Public freakout Mental breakdown What if I stay like this? I can't deal with it I can't deal with it I can't deal with it I can't deal with it Fuck your eye contact Give me my repose back I mean it I'm fucking raging I'll uppercut you ya rat Come near me and I'll snap I feel so bad Wait I didn't mean that I need you I'm such a fucking radge Help me get my breath back Why can't I relax? Why can't I relax?