Family Ghost

In the belly of the whale I can finally get some sleep Now that everything is failed All the pressure's off of me It feels good to feel like I am right where I should be It feels good, it feels good to me If I make it out alive I might still drown in the sea 'Cause even on my better days Sinking down feels like relief But I don't want you to find me hanging from the ceiling I just thought you should know I could go on down that road Sometimes I still feel it It comes up like a ghost Like dear old friends saying "How you been?" "Don't you wanna see what you've been missing?" And all along I see a shadow Watch it grow Must be the family ghost Must be the family ghost Now that things are looking up I feel a better side of me But I could turn for the worst It's just where I'm used to being 'Cause I don't think straight sometimes I can get excited over the smallest thing And even one small push can send me in a spiral It leaves me crumbling It's a fine fine line that I walk sometimes But I can't even tell if I'm still lonely And all along I see a shadow Watch it grow Must be the family ghost Must be the family ghost All along you had the answer In your head You never let me know You never let me know All along I see a shadow Watch it grow Must be the family All along I see a shadow Watch it grow Must be the family ghost Must be the family ghost Must be the family ghost Must be the family ghost