Suicide Letter 3

You've your doubles? (A'ight) Whoever knew I'd ever end up like this All these drugs inside my system, numb the pain on my wrist Yeah, the winter coming days are colder times are getting shorter Bitch I'm 21 my dreams are fading 'cause I'm getting older Oh shit, I think I'm running out of time now I wish I knew how it felt, to make you mine now I'm dreaming with a broken heart but waking up the hardest part So I'ma take these fucking xans until my heart falls apart You not in love until you take your own life I slit my wrist, and then she left me with a heart full of ice Ooh, I'm kinda happy that we didn't work out, but Bitch I'm depressed because I'm stuck in my house My nigga Victor, he gave his fucking shorty all he had He left his friends and got a job because she made my friend a dad I'm not goin' tell your business Vick I love you like a brother But we both know your shorty brought you hell in the summer Loves a myth, I'm only telling two stories I keep my secrets to myself because you don't have to worry You hold her tight so she can bathe me in tears She broke your heart and only left you in fear I'm not a saint or a demon I guess I'm something in between but when I say Depressing lyrics, hoe you know just what I mean Don't follow in my footsteps Strongest might not be the smartest I'll fucking go to hell before she treat you like garbage Loves a movie, this a page out my chapter I lost my faith in fucking god, I start ignoring my pastor The devil watching and talking, hear him talk while I speak He turn my dreams into nightmares, so I try hard not to sleep I'm depressed I'm upset, my eyes red I'm possessed Cancel sticks in my ashtray bitch I want death nothing less Life ain't fair love is pointless so I just drown in my sorrow And I ain't ever get you back, just like the clothes that you borrow My nigga Eli lost his life, my nigga Jaysoh lost his mind Your ex used you she doesn't need you, hope you feel it in your spine You ain't stupid, you ain't dumb Take your drugs and just some wine she don't want you, she just need you, I ain't lying (I love you nigga) The past is the past, I hope you're forgiving the walls Are really getting closer in the room that I'm sitting But I'ma hold you down like ankles waist the way I'm gonna make away We go'n get Richard, you abouta stay I sold my soul