Dirty Blue

Simpler days Singing' away, I would sit with a phrase Back then, it was just a symbol a day Now there's so many, I just sign 'em away, man Is it permission that I need from myself To be clear like the shelf that I needed Full of potions Mission to be free from myself I can't breathe 'til I'm drownin' I know that it's some bullshit I just need a sign Make it clear and bright Free me from this tide I can't trust my mind I can barely hear myself callin' I can barely hear myself I miss the days When everything was okay Instead of feelin' insane My mind was clear as the rain Not dirty blue like the ocean Like I'm drownin' in slow motion Now every day I always gets in my way Negative thoughts in my brain Got me tryin' to escape And always reachin' for potions Tryna control my emotions Dirty blue, yeah I've seen clearer days But I felt the clearest after a cloudy one I've made mistakes A lot of 'em Found myself in the rain My reflection in the gutter Dirty blue puddles 72 dollars to my name Buy a cake for my brothers Take a break, get a bottle Champagne, put my card Put it all on Think about it tomorrow I got so much goin' on At the same time, nothin' at all Imma pick this up I ain't waitin' on a call I miss the days When everything was okay Instead of feelin' insane My mind was clear as the rain Not dirty blue like the ocean Like I'm drownin' in slow motion Now every day I always gets in my way Negative thoughts in my brain Got me tryin' to escape And always reachin' for potions Tryna control my emotions Dirty blue, yeah