Leukemia / AM

So lost, now you're gone, my darling Oh, my misery We were so special, honey, don't forget about me No, nothin' can save you Not out in the sea Guess that's where you goin' Somewhere without me I promised that I wouldn't stress about you Feelin' better now, I learned to live without you Can't believe it's been some months without your name in blue bubbles Texts faded 'cause these old habits brought on new troubles The projection was exhaustin', I was forced to find my fortune Why I suffered many losses, think depression was accosted, I was skinnier Lookin' back, I barely ate my share without me tearin' up My momma ain't around, but somehow I feel I'm hearin' her Tellin' me to distance from this girl, I grew to be with her She ain't like my brother or my best friend, why I'm feedin' her? When the money came in, I put dollars on a dream with her She would beat me down, while any girl would wanna see me up Cryin' on the phone with cous', I can't believe she'd keep me up Accused of me some shit I didn't do and that would eat me up Know she date a legend, but she treat me like leukemia I was down bad and now there's visions of me leavin' her You said it was my fault because somebody stole my bike You hated, and the truth is there as much I did dislike I'm fightin' intuition, bitchin' how I sleep at night Assaulted my emotions, wasn't kosher or polite You treat me like a dog and try to pigeonhole my plight Pillow-talkin', peace offerings, put restrictions on my price And I ain't mad, I got a million overnight Now I'm back out on the market, shawty's talkin' to me nice But I was never petty, girl, I'll never spill on beans I'ma say, you can't love, you let somebody intervene What's the verdict? Had to shake this residue 'cause my new girl, she don't deserve it And I'll be ready if she really want the smoke again Even tried to put a wedge between me and my closest friend I just freeze indeed Did ya forget what you meant to me? I will pray until my knees are sore, I'll be on the floor I'll be prayin' for you (I'll be prayin') So I'll let your love subside And wipe the tears that fall from my eyes No more feelin', lost, confused I'll be prayin' for you, ooh-ooh I'll be prayin' for you This kinda shit don't really happen, so I had to rap it Had to circle back on shawty, surely put this plan in action I'm at the yard, I told my mans, this black girl, she had me tranced Then a couple months later, we at Berries holdin' hands You found me, ain't have to set no boundaries My AM in the AM and every night you spent around me, it was chemistry Shawty somethin' sweet, just like this melody Your smile complete, pullin' back them sheets, your kisses settled me My last was in a spiral, wouldn't be here by a long shot Made me a mimosa when my song dropped, off top She better than my last and she don't smoke but got me gassed A sense of humor like my brothers and ain't afraid to peak a laugh And God brought you to me, prayed for such a loyalty She walk with grace, and every girl replaced would look disorderly There's more to me than Coachella, played the stage, a go-getter You the one that drove me there, your presence made me perform better So intense with open hands, your family mine, won't go against Overjoyed, and she ain't have to drive me there on both weekends Spicy food, there ain't much I'd like to do, outside of you Give you space to concentrate on yoga moves Chest big, fit physique, a Virgo like Beyoncé, sheesh! Showered at her crib, ain't have hot water for a couple weeks Intelligent and not a bitch, my ride or die and I love her speech Knew you were somebody special 'cause you been my common theme She my jigsaw puzzle piece She would bring me love and peace She the one I'm waitin' for I'm glad I am the one you meet (Glad I am the one you meet) I just freeze indeed Did ya forget what you meant to me? I will pray until my knees are sore, I'll be on the floor I'll be prayin' for you (I'll be prayin') So I'll your love subside And wipe the tears that fall from my eyes No more feelin', lost, confused I'll be prayin' for you, ooh-ooh I'll be prayin' for