If I Could Go Back

You ever wish you can go back in time? Maybe right your wrongs? Correct your mistakes? Just wanna go back I feel you I feel the same way I hope you hear me Who you become when you're alone Is really who you are Tell the truth I'm still amazed At how I came this far I tend to isolate myself As a form of safety So if I cry when I'm alone Tell me what that make me? Any less of a man? If I get lost Amongst the darkness Will you reach for my hand? You hear me talkin The pain got me Fightin' my past I told Jesus "Take the wheel" And put my foot on the gas Listen Traumatic memories Are still there If I say it in a song That's cus I really been there My best friend Was killed in front of me When I was 9 Lord knows Ain't no runnin' From what lives inside yo mind If I could go back And tweak it a little To bring me peace Tell Nipsey to stay at home Tell Kobe to take the streets If I could go back And talk to my homie Thru his depression Tell 'em how much he's loved And how his life Is such a blessing Let me go back I know he was thinking "Why even bother?" But he couldn't beat the devil Now his kids don't got a father Damn I swear to God If I could go back I woulda read the signs And tried to save you bro You know that I shouldn't blame myself For all the trauma that's built So if it really ain't my fault Then why am I feelin' this guilt? You hear me talkin My mama told me I'm jaded Cus someone I used to love Became someone that I hated Now If it was simple I'd forgive and forget But I harvested all these feelings From the time that we spent Really thought She had my back I see that wasn't the case Had the nerve to say You got me Then you lied to my face Mama listen Cus I hear you When you say that I'm jaded Emotions choke me When I'm sober I can breathe when I'm faded So for that brief Moment in time It's like I'm free from it all I don't expect for you to get it Just respect it That's all You hear me talkin Just respect it That's all I don't expect for you to get it Just respect it That's all You hear me talkin I swear to God If I could go back If I could go back I swear to God If I could go back I swear to God If I could go back