Open Scars

That's the way that I know that the love is gone 'Cause I know we're gonna fight, that's the way that I know that the love is gone Uh, no love lost it was never love I lost sight, found God, a more better love I ain't never went soft, I'm forever thug, yeah And you ain't God, so you could never judge I had guys I called brothers leave me in the storm That's why my heart still cold even when it's warm All of a sudden they forget like I ain't put 'em on And never had to owe me shit, I did it off the arm Still fightin' demons, duckin' bullets, pullin' thorns It's funny how they still sleep like I ain't blowin' horns This female look like a male like is somethin' wrong Nah, it's still suck my dick, bitch, nothing's wrong This whole industry is rigged, I don't need awards I done things never did and still didn't get applaud Like I ain't got W's across the fuckin' board And my mom became the goat when I was fuckin' born 04-03-92 And I'm only 5'7", but my gun is 5'2" It's Red Lyfe 'til I die, but my jewelry sky blue I don't need material shit, my aura could shine too Big motion Punchin' the clock 'til my times due And anythin' makin' me wealthy I'm doin' it times two Big healthy, no liquor, just water and lime juice No more drugs, somethin' I put my spirit and mind to I feel like somethin' is always missin' No matter how much I do How much I succeed I always just feel like it's never a hundred percent That's what makes me have that bittersweet feelin' You nah mean? Like this is where I first experienced what death really is A part of you died with your brother? Right, basically For the past three years, I let my fans down I lost faith and I couldn't understand how I had to go and free my mind and let my hair down Without the Henny, I see everythin' clear now It's somethin' 'bout the industry, it feel weird now (feel weird now) It's like the music ain't music (it ain't music) It ain't hittin' like (it ain't hittin' like) You don't feel it like (you don't feel it like) It's like they don't care now (they don't give a fuck) It's just somethin' for you to hear now (yeah) It's like the world shifted, too much confusion And when I lost the passion for music is when my world ended I was distracted by trauma, all of the drama From girlfriends to my mama fuckin' my mind up To hurtin' my health and seein' doctors Down to about four, five, six friends on the roster It's funny when you lit, it's a whole line up But this is part of the game, I took the pen and I signed up Broke up with depression, let go my anxiety Turn my back on the devil and neglect the society Face a reality, acceptin' the pain inside of me No more judgin' my honesty No more judgin' my honesty Recovery on velocity The liquor wasn't hidin' my pain, it was hidin' me Lookin' at life like, why would you lie to me? Like, why would you lie to me? Spirit crack, heart broke, my love was on modesty Decayin' my quality Decreasin' my quantity Catchin' up to my truths finally meetin' my prophecy Uh, I swear to God life was kickin' my ass May seem like I had it good, but mentally it was bad Just to get my brother back, I'll give up all of this cash And I'll buy a flight just to take a trip to the past Trust issues won't change, that's just somethin' I have I keep a lawn mower just to see the snakes in the grass And I build a fence just to keep the snakes in the grass And I keep a hawk just to eat the snakes in the grass Down on my deathbed but God healin' me fast He got other plans for me, this just part of the task Smilin' was a disguise, it was tears under that mask Suffocatin' inside for years under that mask No regrets 'cause when I lost love, I found peace When I finally dug deep, nigga, I found a beast Since 2020, I was losin', I was down three I locked in finished the album in nine weeks The streets hungry and soon as I'm cookin' the town eats Only my niggas at the table 'cause they found seats Heal first, find peace, find keys, mind free First step find God, next step find me