I don't wanna go down that road When you feel like you're about to explode

Feels like no one understands So you turn to that bottle in your hands

Back and forth between the light and the dark Just hoping to find that everlasting spark

So sick of being pulled back to the bottom Just wanna keep my head above the water

I just wanna ball, I just wanna make a mill Wanna make my family proud, I just wanna sign a deal

Gotta get it on my own, still nobody on the phone

Put the city on my back, maybe one day earn a plaque

Hopefully I will stay sober Still can't find that closure

Know I'm only getting older This life shit such a rollercoaster

Just wish it'd go slower

Constant battles with myself So many issues done been dealt

Always fighting my sleep Minds in too deep

Paralysis is killing me If you were to see what's in my head

You'd say it looks like a tapestry My brain just be overfed

Tryna heal myself Cause I know no one else will

Moms be telling me to open up But it pains me to explain my feels

But I don't wanna foster my pain Wanna be able to maintain my sane

Don't wanna take things for granted If my peeps wanna help me, accept it don't let it get slanted

I just wanna ball, I just wanna make a mill Wanna make my family proud, I just wanna sign a deal

Gotta get it on my own, still nobody on the phone

Put the city on my back, maybe one day earn a plaque

Hopefully I will stay sober Still can't find that closure

Know I'm only getting older This life shit such a rollercoaster

Just wish it'd go slower

Don't take this life thing so serious Cause this life is too damn precious

Always remember to remain gracious

Dad's a pastor, I feel the pressure Don't let that or anyone determine your next chapter

Realize that the opinion of others don't matter Be who you are and go as far as God plans for you, you're a star

I just wanna ball, I just wanna make a mill Wanna make my family proud, I just wanna sign a deal

Gotta get it on my own, still nobody on the phone

Put the city on my back, maybe one day earn a plaque

Hopefully I will stay sober Still can't find that closure

Know I'm only getting older This life shit such a rollercoaster

Just wish it'd go slower