Waiting

Tell me Why I'm waiting For someone That couldn't give a fuck about me I feel like lately in life Nobody can understand I hide my pain in my music That's what we do when we men I do not show how i feel I fake it you'd think i was fine Honestly it's getting hard Finding my way in this life My girl left in the past week and it kills me not to see her My heart breaks cause the damn shame when it's my fault and i need her I loved you And I told you You believe me But you still leave Now I'm tryna stay but it's so hard I'm holding on so i don't bleed I'm writing songs till I feel alright And I'm 10 in but I'm not okay I'm looking back on them old days That i spent w you For you ran away For you go and change Leave me all alone I don't know to feel How am i to cope When the pills are gone And you not at home When I wanna die where am I to go Tell me Why I'm waiting For someone That couldn't give a fuck about me Tryna look forward in life But it's hard since you left I been feeling alone It's you that's been stuck on my mind Do shit out of spite It's hard doing shit on my own Reluctant to listen to those who help But looking back now Shit I wish I had known Blinded by thoughts of the future I never saw all of the colors of you that was shown A smile is only a mask Just Trying to cover my past Did you ever feel wrong for your lies If you wanted to leave should've asked Shit at least did you ever regret All those misleading things that you said When you claimed you'd be better off dead Overthinking just fucked up my head Bitch you never tried Can't run from these problems there's nowhere to hide I'd Swallow a pill for I swallow my pride These Demons they talk in the back of mind I keep reaching out while you leave me behind Drown in my thoughts I don't care to survive I remember you're gone when I look to my side yea Yea I know that you're gone am I still on your mind Tell me Why I'm waiting For someone That couldn't give a fuck about me