Bare My Soul

On the edge of precipice

Doesn’t feel very good to be running in circles

I lost my essence by jumping through hurtles

And turned to a pessimist left with his journals

The trigger was pressed

By lingering stress

Of can I make money and not be commercial

I handled my ego

And turned to the people

Who told me that all of that shit is internal

I get it, I get it, I get it, I get it

How’d I turn so damn bitter

Momma ain’t raise no quitter

Half man half transmitter

Lots going wrong but I still carry on

There are things that I must consider

Like did I progress?

Or should I show less?

Convinced that I must know best

I’m juggling jobs

To build a career

While fighting with things that I fear

The urge to be right

Is dimming the light

Of anything good

That’s soon to appear

I’m clearing the slate now

No moving with hate now

Patiently playing, avoiding a breakdown

While throwing my weight ‘round

Nobody fucking with me when I’m activated

Acclimated to the demolition

Perhaps I’m jaded and bit too distant

The facts were stated, but I must’ve missed it

Cause I never listen

But I’ll heed a warning

If it grows consistent

And I see it forming

Then it gets explicit

Mentally I’m way past my limit

But damn who isn’t?

I get it, I get it, I get it, I get it

I’ve been living on go

I’ve been scared to say no

But I never let it show

Will I do what’s best for me

And just bare my soul?

When the currents so stong that it broke the jetski

and the pen game harder than Dostoevsky

and the crime is too cold make me wipe my nose

Then I’ma pull as a punisher and do it myself

‘cause i dont want to be another book on the shelf

cage match every time I look at myself

B line, tryna send a hook on the wealth

streamline vessel wanna send me to hell

Like a

goddam gondola

if you loved me once it might come again

im not a fan of the mask and the make-believe

im not a participant of the Comicon

im in the city of the palms in the parking lot

nobody wanna offer a hand or palm

I’m a motel tryna find bliss or god

whatever comes first either way I’d feel shock