Um okay

I'm caught up in the moment, And that's a rare occasion

Cause my mind is usually focused on the future that I'm facing

This a moment in time

That I'm hoping to find

Wherever I hid my peace

I'm getting close then it's mine

Where is all the triumph through the trials And tribulations

The stipulation of my situation ain't great but that shit I'm facing

Is temporary

Aside from getting married

Life's been pretty scary so fuckin' unpredictable

Since my father's diagnosis

I've been higher just to live in full

Talk to something higher just to cry or vent, it's a tool

I'm broken but hoping a coping mechanism of smoking will poke the pessimism right out of my soul

Cause I'm hanging by a thread just praying on this bed And I'm not fuckin sure how much longer I'll hold

Ain't suicidal but idle my mind is wild

I rival the type that smile an live with nothing but hope

I'm over it I feel like I'm over prescribed

Start to feel worse but when I'm sober it skies

Hard as it is hurts I'm getting closer to God

Never been a man of Sunday but weve spoken in time

Lawd please lawd please show me it will be

Okay cause today I've fallen to my knees

to pray And to plead that I'm safe And I'm free

You could take all the pain away I could breathe

Lawd please lawd please show me it will be

Okay cause today I've fallen to my knees

To pray And to plead that I'm safe And I'm free

You could take all the pain away I could breathe

Sometimes I look up to the sky And scream just help somebody

I been feeling like I wanna die but don't wanna tell nobody.

A scary situation I feel like I never healed

All this depression shit gonna get me killed

Now should I head up or load up And double down

Wanna hold my chin to the sky but all the stress made me drown

And shit be feeling like they shoulda took me instead my brother

So much emotion I just feel like I'm smothered

I took a triple shot of d'usse to keep the pain level

Turned into a renegade my thought process stay rebel

The hole these people dug inside my heart wasn't with no plain shovel

My mind on overtime

I've been working with the same devil

See I got people who like to tell me they love me but love to show when they lying

There ain't no such thing as loyalty

That should stop with the time

I sit in this little room with this pocket rocket of mine

Playing with the trigger

Knowing if it go off man I'll be fine

My two kids yea they got a mother

My two sisters yea they got a brother

And they get along with one another

And every day I be feeling like a burden

I know nobody perfect

But is this life shit really fucking worth it

If so, then give me a sign

show me a way

Because it's starting to feel like a game

And I don't really wanna play

I just get grab a gun And pray

That I'm gonna live to see my kids graduate

But it's no enough motivation to stay, so

Lawd please lawd please show me it will be

Okay cause today I've fallen to my knees

to pray And to plead that I'm safe And I'm free

You could take all the pain away I could breathe

Lawd please lawd please show me it will be

Okay cause today I've fallen to my knees

To pray And to plead that I'm safe And I'm free

You could take all the pain away I could breathe