Proper Attitude

I wear a smile And a proper attitude on me To show you how Today I am feeling terrific Why don't you see? I am just pretending to be Flawless And emotionless But there's something going on with me Yeah Going on with me Well Tons of things that I drag Heavily like a convict's ball I won't disagree Yeah I won't disagree Well You know I love To ruin everything I believed in To mess up and Throw it all away I'm sorry honey but I I have to admit that I've tried I've tried to feel good Few months later Here I am Just still dealing with this The fortress that I've built just no longer exists Why can't you see? I feel like a naked baby Vulnerable And assailable Cuz there's something going on with me Yeah Going on with me Well They've always loved to Ruin everything I believed in To mess up and throw it all away I'm sorry honey but I I have to admit that I've tried But I can't spend one more night exhausting you With my incapacity to face up to this reality I'm going to face the fact that I'll never be good enough Not enough for you I'll never be good enough for anyone Never been good enough for me My mind called me and told me so I'm going to face the fact that I I'll mess up and throw it all away I'm sorry honey but I I have to admit that I've tried But I can't spend one more night exhausting you With my incapacity To face up to this reality I'm going to face the fact that I'll never be good enough And never feel good