Keeping Secrets

Is there a way out A way out from the let-down I'm living in? Some refuge from the cloud I'm under Living in lies, what I am is never good enough Every time I cry, it's just the surface There's no hope if I give them nothing Suffocating, so unnerving, I can't get this off my chest But I'm coping with the feeling of your disappointment And now I'm dead in the water I'm afraid it's too late to change (too late to change) It's like I've held up a gun to everyone that I love Now this pain won't go away (go away) You're the pin, I'm the hand grenade How can words of hope hold weight When I can't believe when I tell them to myself? I can't feel heart through the violence A violence that's self-inflicted Living in lies, what I am is never good enough Every time I cry, it's just the surface There's no hope if I give them nothing Suffocating, so unnerving, I can't get this off my chest But I'm coping with the feeling of your disappointment And now I'm dead in the water I'm afraid it's too late to change (too late to change) It's like I've held up a gun to everyone that I love (held up a gun, one that I love) Now this pain won't go away (go away) You're the pin, I'm the hand grenade Now the cold hard truth I'm miserable and panicked now What can I do? Distress in bloom I thought that I could numb the pain But I'm just losing myself again Light it up Can I feel love if I'm keeping secrets? Can I feel peace if my heart's made of stone? And now I'm dead in the water I'm afraid it's too late to change (it's too late, it's too late) It's like I've held up a gun to everyone that I love (held up a gun, one that I love) Now this pain won't go away (go away) You're the pin, I'm the hand grenade Now this pain won't go away (go away) You're the pin, I'm the hand grenade Can I feel love if I'm keeping secrets again?