She Comes & Goes

(It comes and goes in waves) (It always does) (Always does, and I didn't make this) (It comes and goes in waves) (It always does) (Always does) I been tryna to recover But this soul tie shit, been driving me insane I'm in the passenger's seat and the doors are locked So I can't get out like I just got detained I try breaking the glass, but I didn't get far Now I got a four-five up to my brain She told me, "Don't move," I been lying to my fans When I say that I'm okay 'cause She comes and goes, I get too close My heart on froze, I can't let her go She comes and goes, I get too close She lets me go Just one night and it turns to loads I don't even know if I'll make it home She comes and goes, she says, "Let's go" My mind says yes but my heart says no She came and she went, now I got to recover But I'm trapped in the same damn cycle She like my rival, star crossed-lovers I'm holding a knife but she holding a rifle I know what she's on, so I'm taking cover I'm ready for war, but I got to be mindful Holding back, now she feeling entitled Excuse my French, build a tower then I fall Fuck, I think now that I'm healing I got to stiffen my lip and stand right up It's fucked 'cause I really been slouching Feeling sorry for myself like I'm worth nothing Get the fuck-up, the world still counting Cuh the world don't stop for any damn thing So get up! You better start grinding Just get the fuck-up! And stop all this crying Every day I been getting so close to my dream They say I make hits when I pick up my pen I think I found myself It's going so well, but how will it end? I'm back on track again So there's no way I can lack again But what if I turn my back again So I turned my back and she back again Fuck! She comes and goes, I get too close My heart on froze, I can't let her go She comes and goes, I get too close She lets me go Just one night and it turns to loads I don't even know if I'll make it home She comes and goes, she says, "Let's go" My mind says yes but my heart says no Somehow she's back again What the fuck do I do? I don't know what to say I'm fucked, I know I shoulda blocked her account I did, but she made another one same day I hate it so much that my dm's are open I can't close them 'cause I love my fans I try to ignore it, but she knows where I am And I can't get away, so I let her land The same damn girl that was fucking me up Way more than once, am I fucking insane? Justify what she did in the past I'm thinking it's calm, might give her a chance And this is what love just does heart Makes you a dartboard, vulnerable to your half If they want a bullseye, then they're gonna get it They'll close one eye and aim straight for your heart And that's why I'm so twisted Now I'm back in this constant cycle I couldn't give a fuck if my heart's so vital I'd rip that out for the person I'd die for I don't know if it's love Or I just love hard, or I guess I'm a psycho Anyway, if you feel like me We'll get through it soon and it's like I been trying to recover But this soul tie shit, been driving me insane I'm in the passenger's seat and the doors are locked So I can't get out like I just got detained I try breaking the glass, but I didn't get far Now I got a four-five up to my brain She told me don't move, I been lying to my fans When I say that I'm okay 'cause She comes and goes, I get too close My heart on froze, I can't let her go She comes and goes, I get too close She lets me go Just one night and it turns to loads I don't even know if I'll make it home She comes and goes, she says, "Let's go" My mind says yes but my heart says no She comes and goes, I get too close My heart on froze, I can't let her go She comes and goes, I get too close She lets me go Just one night and it turns to loads I don't even know if I'll make it home She comes and goes, she says, "Let's go" My mind says yes but my heart says no (It comes and goes in waves) (It always does)