Alone

Yeah, I'm so alone, but it's alright

It's eating me alive, and I don't mind

Just leave me alone, cause I can't seem

To find peace up in my mind

Yeah, I'm so afraid, but it's alright

Leave me in the dark and I won't mind

Please just let me go cause I can't seem

To find peace up in my mind

Try to read the story but the page is all white

I can't tell if Imma made you stay or made you wait

I admit it I feel lonely I don't know if I'll be

Ever able to escape my pain but hey I'm trying

I do not need all the answers

I just want some peace of mind and

Try to find the pieces that I left to die down in the dark

And I can't heal where I got sick

So give me time for all my scars

And try to leave the part of mine behind that is in love with darkness

In this garden there is water but no flowers

And nobody that will ever understand the way I'm truly feeling

Same weather different season miss the days I wasn't freezing

It's like a rainy day with a broken ceiling

Focused on my outside cause my inside is so hopeless

I am trapped inside these walls

Yeah I'm still caught up with these traumas

I got cold feet from the water that is covering my floor

And I don't know where it is coming from while it is dripping from my ceiling

Yeah, I'm so alone, but it's alright

It's eating me alive, and I don't mind

Just leave me alone, cause I can't seem

To find peace up in my mind

Yeah, I'm so afraid, but it's alright

Leave me in the dark and I won't mind

Please just let me go cause I can't seem

To find peace up in my mind

Close the door open books different state of mind

I cannot complete the chapters that I start to write

Maybe that's why I cannot say goodbye

To the ones that left me scarred and just left to die

Go to war with different weapons

One day I might send some letters

To the ones at home and tell them that they put me under pressure

But for now I'm fighting battles writing verses hope I make it

Past the danger zone yeah I heard that it's 27

And too many times knew I couldn't fight

But I had to fight so I did ball my fist

I punched that guy right in the face and broke my wrist

Yeah as a little kid I thought that violence

Is the only thing you truly need inside

And if in this story I'm the villain not the hero

Might as well just go and kill em

Change the narrative and vanish in my own reflection

Guess I'm just another broken individual

That's busy finding meaning while ignore the broken ceiling

I got battle scars yeah they take me far

I don't really know if I can go and end this war

Moments that I lost no I can't have em back

And memories that I made

Wish I could go give em back

I want nothing in return if it hurts

Yes it does all this pain it is absurd

I might earn some things I can't explain

And all these thoughts inside my brain I line em up

To light em up to burn em down

And while the fire's burning through my eyes

I realize I made it worse

Can't erase the mistakes that I made

Might as well just go waste some more days

In my pain and while prices are high

Might as well just go buy some more gasoline

To pour it in the flames and watch it go to waste

I burn my hands cause I can't stand the distance

I'd rather burn alive to go ignite in all my pleadings

I'm feeling the heat I'm surrounded by my demons

While I'm looking to the ceiling for some water to extinguish