In my thirties writing break up songs

Can someone tell me what I keep doing wrong

I got this letter I wanna send her

I can't forget her and it's not getting better

Can you blame me that I wanna move on

It's been a total mess for far too long

I got this letter I wanna send her

I can't forget her and it's not getting better

Full speed heading towards a wall

I wonder if she sees it coming at all

I got this letter I wanna send her

I can't forget her and it's not getting better

It's all shit but it's been worse before

Now is the perfect time to close the door

I can't forget her and it's not getting better

I wrote a letter, that I'm gonna send

I wrote a letter that I'm gonna regret but I'm still gonna send it

And when we talk this through in a couple of months I'll say that I never meant it

I made a list of some shit that you pulled but I already feel stupid

Cause you'll probably rip it apart right away as soon as you've called it bullshit

I wrote some words down and I'm feeling like shit now

Just needs a stamp and then it's ready to go out

and when she gets it in a couple of days

Won't check my phone or won't get out of my place

I wrote a letter that I'm gonna regret but I'm still gonna send it

And when we talk this through in a couple of months I'll say that I never meant it

I made a list of some shit that you pulled but I already feel stupid

Cause you'll probably rip it apart right away as soon as you've called it bullshit

Cause I'm weak, and there's so much wrong with that