She said we made a baby
Said it wasn't maybe
Well I stood there froze in my tracks
Probably never would've asked her
God this felt like a disaster
Shotgun, wedding dress
And no turning back
You know I wasn't blameless
Had some dreams, I wasn't aimless
Didn't know what I was aiming for
A bloody screaming cold perfection
Came and gave me my direction
Before I was barely out my mama's door
Been my beloved been my joy
Since they said it was a boy
Doing everything that I had to do
Since I first held you in my hands
Tryin' to make you understand
I'm totally devoted to you
Now your mom and I don't speak
And so it's every other weekend
Hardly time to learn to ride a bike
Awkward transitions
Learning love without condition
And trying to find some food that you like
You're my beloved you're my joy
I'm just tryin' to make some noise
And tell the world what you gonna do
Since I first held you in my hands
Tryin' to make you understand
I'm totally devoted to you
I had some help I surely did
Awful hard to raise a kid
When most times that kid was me
All the life I would've wasted
If you hadn't been created
And put me where I needed to be
AY
AY AY
You're my beloved you're my joy
You helped me find my voice
You showed me what I needed to do
Since I first held you in my hands
Tryin' to make you understand
I'm totally devoted to you
Been my beloved been my joy
Since they said it was a boy
Doing everything that I had to do
From ultrasound
Til they put me in the ground
Love I'm totally devoted to you
AY AY
