Alaskan Snow (feat. Sugar Colt)

Can not forget it I was young Can't count on winning But I was strong Can not forget it I was young Can't count on winning But I was strong Dad he grew up a bastard son Mama walked through Alaskan snow Dad he grew through his acts of love Mama's heart always had its holes When they met it was Christmas Eve Three days later he had proposed Pain and love became apropos I was nine when I stacked the bones Standing by while the roses wilt Not my choice, how I'm supposed to feel? I got voids only prose can fill Back when my wall was poster-filled Back when talks weren't a voice-less hell Back when life was an oyster shell Soaked in guilt but still so concealed Hoist the sails or destroy myself Family tree where I found my stems They tend to judge from the outside in Make 'em proud pull my insides out This one's for you two I count my gifts Can not forget it I was young Can't count on winning But I was strong Can not forget it I was young Can't count on winning But I was strong I know it's hard to to take another step when you carry doubt Parents found a way to make it heaven in a barren town Grew a garden from the dirt to watch 'em as they tear it out Home is where the heart is not a product of its whereabouts Father made me listen to the wisdom I would cherish now Hard to pay attention to the windows I was staring out Called out of classes just so I could see a therapist Advice sounded right at the time it's generic now Every night a fight has been the pattern since the marriage vows Didn't wanna end up in that pattern I was scared to miss Elusive with excuses super glued 'em to a pair of lips Hard to catch my breath ever since when I air it out I got more bruises and regrets than I care to count Little boy hiding from the noise like a caracal A dozen burning horses go around in a carousel Dozen burning horses go around Can not forget it I was young Can't count on winning But I was strong Can not forget it I was young Can't count on winning But I was strong