Roach-like Resilience

Feel like a wilted plant, wanna chill but can't Can I kick it? Alright cool, because I will just rant Layer one's the matriarch, a major part Of my behavior starts with no foundation like a trailer park Consequently since seventh grade I've been making art As just a way to keep the pain at bay when shit was crazy dark I guess to try to keep sane I jot my thoughts down And journal on the daily cuz mane, I'd rather not drown I've often found solace in philosophical musing Finding meaning where there's none because life is awful confusing My family is a super cell that frequently produces wind That's at least 210 MPH but musics been Like an underground shelter some energetic shield Deflecting radiated rays like the magnetic field I stay surviving with my roach-like resilience That's why you'll never see the day society erodes my brilliance "It's said that cockroaches would be the only creatures to survive a nuclear war. They're not indestructible but they are amazingly resilient" If the past is traumatic and the path you travel is tragic You may naturally and passively unravel as an addict But your sadness is valid and symptomatic Of the savagery you actually battled if that's dramatic Well, you probably had it half as bad and shouldn't speak on this Me and my people are from Hades, fuck your mountain peaks of bliss I keep just trying to be tough but it's a hassle bro Tired from these every day struggles, these demons have to go I'd rather grow a pasture full of apple trees and apricots Instead I wrastle with madness, in fact I think creative blocks Form in the painful knots my stomach's always twisted in Which is why I find no fault in folks that end up giving in But listen friend, try to hold on if you can I don't know why this happened to you, I don't understand Why life's so fucked up but I see and hear you Might not have been as tough but my existence has been weird too